Thursday, June 03, 2004

birthday's come and gone, nothing much to say about it, just that i spent it clubbing, same as last year's. happy? maybe. just a little(yeah little my ass) sad that i couldn't celebrate it the way i wanted, with the person that mattered. to you, i'm glad to see you happy, with the way things are going for you now. like i told you just now, i dunno if i'm doing the right thing, by waiting for you. perhaps yes maybe no, but i have this feeling i'll just keep waiting until either my feelings die, or when you get married. patience seems to be my virtue, and bane as well. i know you want me to move on and find someone better, but after i've met you no one seems better. yep, its just you, everything about you. i miss you so so much, although i tell myself not to think about you. been dreaming about you every night, and its really every night. so much that it scares me at times. hmm thoughts are swirling about in my head again, hard to put them down in words. i don't even know why i'm writing all this anyway. hmm.