Monday, January 18, 2010

a man once ate a supper knowing he would die soon after. today i ate a dinner feeling that with each bite and swallow, a part of me was dying away too.

"after this dinner we're quits."

i ate a salad that i wished would never finish,
but it did.

i drank from a glass of water that i wished would never empty,
but it did.

you asked for a bill that i wished would never come,
but it did.

we took an escalator that i wished would never reach the ground,
but it did.

we waited at a junction, and i wished the light would never change,
but it did.

we waited for a bus that i wished would never come,
but it did.

we took a bus that i wished would never reach its stop,
but it did.

we walked a lane that i wished would never come to its end,
but it did.

and i never stopped loving a girl, wishing and hoping she'll someday love me back,
but she never did.

in the end, all i could do is to tell her to be happy, whatever she'll be and whoever she'll be with.

i'm such a fucking loser.